I was supposed to go to a show tonight. My parents knew I was going to this show and they wait until I’m leaving, literally walking out the door, to tell me I can’t go. I have narcolepsy and up until about 4 months ago it’s been tame and nothing medicine couldn’t normalize. Recently though, it’s just me falling asleep everywhere, all the time and during anything. I admit, it’s bad. The thing about narcolepsy is, it isn’t just at night or when you haven’t slept..I can wake up at 10 in the morning from sleeping for 12 hours and the first though in my head is, “Crap. I’m sleepy as heck.” I’ve driven my car off the road 5 times in the past two months and the distance I’m allowed to drive gets cut shorter and shorter with each almost-accident situation. This week my parents made it 30 minutes. Nothing more than 30 minutes away. Which cuts out a lot of road trips I had planned and shows that are south of Atlanta I was planning on attending. Well now it’s 15. FIFTEEN FREAKING MINUTES. I’m not mad…just really upset. Brittany is still too afraid to get her license so literally I’m pretty much going nowhere unless the whole family is going. My dad wants to hire me a driver but I’d rather stay at home all day than have someone chauffeur me around like a brat.
I feel so lazy because I want to sleep all the time and I’m always so tired and it’s horrible. It’s absolutely horrid.
This was random but I needed to vent.